Evening Wrap Up
I went to karate tonight. I'm glad. Daily I look at my life and expect that I will see bigger changes in all the aspects I think I am working on. When I don't I am not disappointed so much as surprised. Some days I feel like I have expended a great deal of effort towards this personal improvement or that way of thinking but when I measure I find I have only moved an inch or a centimeter. Forward is forward no matter the distance.
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I ask myself a lot what life is about, for. I don't know of course. I am actually just trying to figure out what my life is about, for. I just don't want to miss anything, you know? Since I have not been able to define life I have instead been trying to define myself. Streamline me. Make me the best me I can be (ouch! that phrasing is so tacky I cut my hand on it). I think I am making headway.
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I ramble on endlessly about my next job, but I want to get it right. I don't want there to be too many more jobs for me. I still don't know exactly what it is I want to do but I am getting clearer and clearer about what I want in a workplace. If only that was how job searches were written.
I want to be down the hall. I want people who work with me to know who I am because we actually work together but I want to have a separate work space because I need some privacy to be at my best in a work situation. I want to have some task or aspect of whatever the work is that I am the point person for and so if someone needed help with that aspect they might stick their head in a colleague's office and that colleague would direct that person to me saying "She's down the hall."
I have always wanted to work in a relatively quiet place where people are thinking and working all day and then they come together and share their thoughts, both formally and informally.
I want my colleagues in my office to be international. I would like to have to use another language at work. Maybe even two or three other languages. I think I would like to work at a more or less flat company.
I think that's enough. Good night.
